One Month: Finding Peace

Today marks one month since I gave birth to my Keilee. One month from when we finally got to see her and hold her. We knew what the outcome was going to be... we were prepared for that moment...  with all the preparation and thinking that I understood why this was happening  you would think that it would have sunk in... I would be stronger. But, nope. Not so much. Today I woke up realizing that this could have been another month closer to my original due date. Then I told myself move on. It is done with.. things are what they are. I packed those thoughts away & moved on. So what is there to do? Bury yourself in housework thats what. That didn't turn out to good. I started out being thankful.... thankful  that I have a house to clean.... thankful that we are able to have clean clothes to put on even though sometimes you have to dig them out of  a pretty big pile... thankful that I have arms and legs that work so that I'm able to clean out the pets cage.... thankful that my little two year old is able to have milk in the morning even though he decided to spill it all over the place rather than drink it. Then I stopped being so thankful and everything went Boom! I lost all peace.  I was angry, sad, frustrated, annoyed. Everything you name it I was feeling it. So what happened next? The hubs  gets ready for work & sees me at my worst. Here I come with grumpy face whiny voice and nag.. nag.. nag... All while he is just being the sweetest hubby a wife could ask for. I sent him off to work probably making his Monday ten thousand times worst! I wanted him to be peaceful.. I wanted him to have a good day... but I made it pretty hard for him. I wanted to slap myself and say snap out of it. I wanted to be at peace with everything... I wanted to be happy. As I was driving home I had a good talk with my inner self. I understand why things happen most of the time. I'm in control of the things I do, think & say. Even though sometimes it feels like I'm looking at myself from the outside wondering who the hell is this crazy lady. I realize the only way I will find peace with myself, life, and things that happen is by truly understanding. Understanding that I am in control of myself and the way I make others feel around me. I understand that things will get better & things are not bad... It is up to me how I want to handle things that come my way. I choose to be peaceful & allow others to feel peace while being around me. And with all my ramblings all I want to say is happy One month baby girl! 

Two...

I was having the worst contractions when the hubs refused to take me to the doctor because I had a few too many "false alarms" the previous night... Well sure enough after crying my eyes out we were speeding down the highway. And what do ya know...  about an hour later we got to meet this little  guy for the first time. He has brought so much joy, love and craziness into our world. I can't believe you are already two... I want to keep you this little forever. I am so grateful to be able to spend every second of the day with you. Watching you grow & being apart of it is the biggest blessing I could possibly ask for... I love you little guy & Happy Birthday.

August Beauty Favorites

Okay, so I bought this Biore face cleansing scrub from Target a few weeks ago & I'm totally addicted. I'm gonna be honest I'm not into buying all types of cleansers for my face, but lately I guess my hormones are all out of wack! Thanks to this little person growing inside of me. I started breaking out terribly on the sides of my cheeks & went into freak mode & let me tell ya this stuff has been a life saver. This Biore exfoliates your skin and makes it feel so fresh & clean. I was worried about it leaving my face feeling dry and stiff, but nope it sure didn't.I hate wearing hairspray only because everyone that I try & that actually holds leaves my hair feeling dirty, stiff and not very flowy like. I don't think thats a word, but you get what I'm trying to say?  Now, this Dove hairspray does the total opposite. It smells great and actually holds without leaving your hair stiff. Me gusta mucho!I  recently ran out of concealer & honestly I've been way to lazy to drag myself to the mall and hit up Sephora so I thought I would settle for this Match Perfection from Rimmel. Thank God they finally built a Target right down the street. I really like it! I like that for one it is super cheap & two it goes on as liquid and as you dab it on it kinda turns into powder-ish form. It covers just about anything which is quite lovely. It is a squeeze tube and has a brush at the end where it dispenses the concealer. The only downfall is a little does not go a long way. In other words I don't see this lasting me as long as I'm use to.Oh & if you are wondering I picked up this very cute makeup bag from forever 21 for a whopping $4! Pretty awesome eh? Toodles for now :)

DIY Teacher Gift Idea

This year my guy is 2nd Grader! Once again he is blessed with a very lovely teacher. I love it when teachers have blogs and you are able to find out a little more about them. We did a little research & found out this teacher loves skittles, so we decided to get a little crafty.....

Here is to a great school year!

Bumming it the last week of summer

So our summer fun is almost over...  Lately a little someone has been pretty anxious about starting second grade. Thank goodness for that. No more late nights munching out on junk food & watching late night movies. 

So here is to enjoying our last couple of days chillaxing before we have to switch back into routine. 

Oh joy

Well the unthinkable happened to me. You know the thing that you try to blame someone else for but in reality you are the only one to blame. Yup i got caught up in all these summer vacay whoo hoo no worries state of mind and completely abandoned my dear old blog. So what happens when you forget to renew your domain name in a timely manner? Well someone snags it of course and tries to sell it to you for a crap load of money. Yea not cool man, not cool! And to top it off I've been craving thicker eyebrows. I've gone this far without waxing or tweezing. No more bathroom butchered eybrows for this girl. Lets see how long this lasts. So anywho the good thing is I've been dying to start a new blog or revamp my old one <<which is not going to happen... So here we are Welcome to my new blog.. grab a doughnut and some hot cocoa.. this is my new journey.